The first time I truly felt free from addiction was at my 1 year anny. Somehow coming through all four seasons gave me the feeling I truly had this addiction down and out. Even though I know I am a nicotine addict and I can never have another puff. If I did I’d be back at square one and two packs a day in no time. 
I don’t feel sorry that I never can have another puff. It makes my quit that much easier to keep. No temptation. I’m absolutely sure that nicotine does nothing good for me, that there is absolutely no benefit to tobacco whatsoever.  
I still get the very occasional crave. It’s always triggered by previous habit, when I come into a situation where |I used to smoke and that I didn’t encounter before since I quit. They are dismissed easily. Freedom is real. It is awesome. NOPE is the way to get there and stay there. Practice NOPE. Out of love for yourself, for yours and for all of us. Hugs & love from Amsterdam NL and Bandon OR.